Obama of Malaysia

Please sign this petition: NO TO THE RESIGNATION OF YB ELIZABETH WONG

2009-02-23T11:01:00.001-08:00

Source: http://www.petitiononline.com/63724385/petition.html

Please sign your petition at

http://www.petitiononline.com/63724385/petition-sign.html

To: The Chief Minister of Selangor, The General Leader of PKR & Pakatan Rakyat Leaders

Explanatory note:

This is a petition calling for YB Elizabeth Wong to be reinstated. If you agree to support this petition, you are required to submit your full name i.e. your given name and your last/family name as well as the city/town and state of your residence. This information will be displayed. Names that appear to be false or incomplete may eventually be dropped from this petition before its submission. Collation of signatures in support of this petition will continue until the end of February 2009 but this is subject to the developments surrounding the issue. This petition together with a list of the signatories thereto will be sent to the Chief Minister of Selangor, the General Leader of PKR as well as the political parties within the Pakatan Rakyat.

Nota Penjelasan:

Ini adalah sebuah petisyen yang meminta YB Elizabeth Wong bertugas semula. Jika anda menyokong petisyen ini, anda diwajibkan memberi nama penuh anda, yakni nama sebenar dan nama keluarga/akhir anda beserta dengan bandar dan negeri di mana anda menetap. Maklumat ini akan dipaparkan. Nama-nama yang dipercayai palsu atau tidak lengkap mempunyai kemungkinan digugurkan dari petisyen ini sebelum ia disampaikan kepada pihak yang berkenaan. Pengumpulan tandatangan para penyokong petisyen akan diteruskan sehingga ke akhir Februari 2009 tetapi walau bagaimanapun ini adalah bergantung kepada perkembangan isu ini. Petisyen ini bersama dengan tandatangan-tandatangan penyokongnya akan dihantar kepada Menteri Besar Selangor, Ketua Umum Parti PKR dan juga parti-parti politik di dalam gabungan Pakatan Rakyat.

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English

FEB 19, 2009

TO:

YANG AMAT BERHORMAT TAN SRI DATO' ABDUL KHALID IBRAHIM
CHIEF MINISTER OF SELANGOR

YANG BERHORMAT DATUK SERI ANWAR IBRAHIM
GENERAL LEADER
PARTI KEADILAN RAKYAT

LEADERS OF POLITICAL PARTIES WITHIN THE PAKATAN RAKYAT COALITION

NO TO THE RESIGNATION OF YB ELIZABETH WONG

Once in a while an exceptional political representative will emerge in our midst. One such fine individual is our Yang Berkhidmat Ms. Elizabeth Wong.

Eli, as she is known to her friends, has long been a well-known figure in the Malaysian civil society movement. Eli brims with an authentic political and public personality - she is intelligent, well-read, talented, competent, skilful, and has shown to possess all the right concerns. If one had thought of bribing a public official or luring some Pakatan Rakyat elected representatives into the Barisan Nasional, one would have dropped Eli's name right from the beginning. She is incorruptible. It is in fact the people's great privilege that someone as sincere as this had at last run for public office.

We, the undersigned, are thus extremely concerned by the circumstances that she has found herself in currently. Having her private moments photographed without her consent is certainly a violation of her privacy and an outrage of her modesty. Equally important, we are especially appalled at the distribution of the photographs itself. We abhor intimate images that intrude upon a person's privacy and developed and used in the absence of consent. Subsequently, the distribution and exploitation of such images are what we must also be opposed to.

Contrary to the views of Khir Toyo on its constitution, morality is about the deliverance of justice - the commitment to a sense of fair play in our management of conflicting interests. While it may involve the need to honour our personal partnerships fairly, it has nothing to do with who have seen us in the nude or how we decide to conduct our personal lives, especially if it does not victimise anyone else.

We are then also dismayed by the manner in which certain media have chosen to portray, prioritise and sensationalise the issue with outrageous juxtapositions. Pertinent news about the poor, gender issues and indigenous peoples could never receive sufficient coverage in this country and yet some find it fit to peddle someone else's distress in a cheap way. This is very low.

We therefore would like to appeal to the Selangor Chief Minister and his State Government, the Parti Keadilan Rakyat and the Pakatan Rakyat coalition to not simply just accept Eli's offer to resign. We urge you to continuously stand by her at this difficult juncture. Please demonstrate to us that you are really worth our vote and have, despite all the odds set against you, attained a level of governance that can ably address such threats and intimidation without giving in to concerns that are petty and narrow-minded. If you are adamant that she should stay, you will certainly be setting the bar on high ground, unreachable by dirty tactics.

However, if you choose to let her go, then we consider that you have lost one of OUR brightest and sincerest politicians. We will be extremely disappointed. You will have also set a political precedent that may again be used against you in the future, and again.

A resignation or dismissal of elected representatives should only take place when their behaviour is disruptive to the deliverance of justice or if they have somehow clearly demonstrated their lack of personal ethics and integrity. A political party has to recognise its liabilities and risks correctly. Abuse of power, graft, corruption, deception, gross negligence, violence, incitement to hate and offensive conduct will certainly jeopardise its interests because they harm the people. Eli has committed none of these. Her integrity is intact.

We wish to see that our elected representatives get back to the job of running the country. Eli's performance has been exemplary since the day she took office. She must be reinstated as soon as possible.

Finally to Eli, we would like to pledge our strong support for you, at a personal level, and for your continued involvement in public service. Our hearts and thoughts are with you. We are indeed very much impressed by the manner in which you have handled this malicious personal attack with dignity. Rest assured that this will not mar public perception of you or your party. We will stand by you as you overcome this. So please continue your service in the name of the people. We would like your voice to continue to be heard directly in the State Assembly and during all important decision-making processes of the state. Please come back, Eli. The nation needs you.

Thank you.

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Bahasa Melayu

FEB 19, 2009

KE HADAPAN:

YANG AMAT BERHORMAT TAN SRI DATO' ABDUL KHALID IBRAHIM
MENTERI BESAR SELANGOR

YANG BERHORMAT DATUK SERI ANWAR IBRAHIM
KETUA UMUM PARTI
PARTI KEADILAN RAKYAT

PEMIMPIN-PEMIMPIN PARTI POLITIK DALAM GABUNGAN PAKATAN RAKYAT

TIADA PERLETAKAN JAWATAN OLEH YB ELIZABETH WONG

Sekali-sekala, akan muncul seorang perwakilan politik yang sangat berupaya di celah-celah kesibukan kita. Salah sebuah susuk yang berkeupayaan ini adalah tentunya Yang Berkhidmat Cik Elizabeth Wong kita.

Eli, sepertimana beliau dikenali oleh teman-temannya, adalah sebuah susuk yang dikenali ramai di dalam gerakan sivil Malaysia. Personaliti Eli di ruang awam dan politik penuh dengan keasliannya yang tersendiri - beliau bijak, banyak membaca, berbakat, mempunyai keupayaan dan kebolehan dan telah menunjukkan bahawa beliau memiliki perhatian ke atas perkara-perkara yang betul. Jika ada sesiapa yang pernah terfikir untuk merasuah seorang petugas awam atau menarik sesetengah wakil rakyat Pakatan Rakyat ke dalam Barisan Nasional, orang ini akan menggugurkan nama Eli semenjak dari awal lagi. Eli ini satu susuk yang tidak akan makan suap. Sebenarnya kita sangat beruntung bahawa seorang yang jujur seperti ini akhirnya telah bertanding untuk mewakili kita.

Oleh itu, kami yang bertandatangan di bawah, merasa sangat gusar tentang keadaan yang terpaksa dilalui oleh Eli sekarang. Pengambilan gambar beliau dalam keadaan yang sangat pribadi tanpa persetujuannya, tentunya adalah satu perlanggaran hak pribadi beliau dan sebuah pencabulan kehormatan. Kami juga turut berasa marah terhadap perbuatan menyebarkan gambar-gambar tersebut. Kami mengutuk imej-imej intim yang menceroboh ke dalam ruang pribadi seseorang itu dan dibikin dan dipergunakan tanpa persetujuan si empunya tubuh. Selanjutnya, penyebaran dan eksploitasi imej-imej seperti ini adalah apa yang mesti turut dibantah.

Walaupun Khir Toyo mungkin mempunyai pendapat yang berbeza tentang pemaknaan moral, moraliti adalah tentang cara kita menyikapi penyebaran keadilan - sebuah perjanjian untuk berlaku adil dalam pada kita menguruskan kepentingan-kepentingan manusia yang bercanggah antara satu sama lain. Walaupun ia mungkin ada kaitan dengan cara kita memenuhi tanggungjawab dalam sesebuah perkongsian pribadi dengan adil, ia tiada kena mengena langsung dengan siapa yang pernah melihat kita tidak berpakaian atau cara kita menjalankan kehidupan pribadi kita, terutamanya jika ia tidak memangsakan orang lain.

Kami juga turut merasa jelek dengan cara sesetengah media telah memilih untuk menggambarkan, memberikan perhatian dan memperbesar-besarkan hal ini, dengan pertentangan isyarat-isyarat imej yang sangat tidak wajar. Berita-berita penting tentang orang-orang marhaen, isu gender dan masyarakat Orang Asal tidak pernah mendapat liputan yang mencukupi di negara ini tetapi ada pihak yang berasa wajar untuk menjaja kesulitan seseorang itu dengan cara murahan. Ini adalah perbuatan yang sangat rendah akhlaknya.

Oleh itu, kami merayu kepada Menteri Besar Selangor dan Kerajaan Negerinya, Parti Keadilan Rakyat and gabungan Pakatan Rakyat untuk tidak membiarkan sahaja Eli melepaskan jawatannya. Kami menggesa kesemua pihak yang berkenaan untuk terus berdiri teguh bersama Eli dalam keadaan yang sukar ini. Tunjukkan kepada kami bahawa undi kami merupakan undi yang bernilai tinggi, dan anda, walaupun diberi tentangan-tentangan yang hebat, telah mencapai satu takat kepemerintahan yang dapat menangani sebarang ugutan dan intimidasi dengan bijak dan tidak akan akur kepada pemikiran yang remeh-temeh dan cetek. Jika kita bertegas mahukan Eli kekal dengan jawatannya, ini bermakna satu pilihan telah dibuat untuk meninggikan kayu ukur kita di tempat yang tidak akan boleh dicapai oleh taktik-taktik kotor.

Tetapi jika kesemua pihak memilih untuk melepaskan Eli, KAMI tentunya akan kehilangan antara salah seorang ahli politik yang paling pintar dan jujur. Kami akan berasa sangat kecewa jika ini adalah pilihan semua. Kita juga akan mencipta satu contoh keputusan politikal yang mungkin akan dipergunakan untuk menggugat kesemua pihak sekali lagi di masa hadapan, dan sekali lagi.

Peletakan atau pelucutan jawatan seseorang wakil rakyat itu hanya patut jika perlakuan mereka telah mengganggugugat penyebaran keadilan atau jika mereka dengan beberapa cara telah menunjukkan dengan jelas bahawa etika dan integriti pribadi mereka sangat rendah. Sesebuah parti politik itu harus mengenali dengan tepat tanggungjawab dan risiko-risikonya. Penyalahgunaan kuasa, rasuah, korupsi, penipuan, kecuaian yang melampau, keganasan, seruan kepada kebencian dan perlakuan kasar boleh mengganggu kepentingan sesebuah parti politik itu kerana mereka membahayakan rakyat. Eli telah tidak melakukan apa-apa pun seperti ini. Integriti beliau tetap utuh.

Kami mahukan wakil-wakil rakyat kami untuk kembali ke tugas mereka yang sebenar, yakni, menguruskan negara ini. Di sini, prestasi Eli semenjak beliau dilantik sememangnya layak dijadikan contoh. Oleh itu, beliau mesti kembali ditugaskan secepat yang mungkin.

Terakhir sekali kepada Eli, kami memberikan sokongan tidak berbelah bagi kepada anda, secara pribadi dan untuk penglibatan terus anda di perkhidmatan awam. Hati dan fikiran kami sentiasa bersama anda. Kami sebenarnya merasa sangat bangga bahawa anda telah menangani serangan keji bersifat pribadi ini, dengan cara yang terhormat. Janganlah bimbang, hal ini tidak akan mencemar pandangan masyarakat awam terhadap anda ataupun parti. Kami akan berdiri teguh bersama anda ketika anda cuba melepasi keperitan ini. Kami meminta anda untuk menyambung tugas-tugas anda di atas nama rakyat. Kami mahukan suara anda didengar secara langsung di Dewan Undangan Negeri dan di kesemua proses membuat keputusan yang penting di peringkat negeri. Kembalilah semula Eli. Negara ini memerlukan anda.

Terima kasih.

Sincerely,

The Undersigned

1,000.000 People wants Malaysian Govt, Release 4 HINDRAF Lawyers from ISA

2009-02-23T04:00:00.001-08:00

Source: http://national-express-malaysia.blogspot.com/2009/02/1000000-people-wants-malaysian-govt.html

Let us show the UMNO govt that we care for our hero, who fought and keep on fighting even from inside Kemta for our rights. We should act before anything bad happen to him. Let we give pressure to them to give him proper medical treatment.

28/2/2009

Balai Polis Brickfields, KL.

10 pagi

Kesihatan Wira makkal sakthi P.Uthayakumar semakin kritikal.

Laporan polis secara besar-besaran, seorang demi seorang demi seorang, terhadap Rejim UMNO, Kemta dan KDN kerana menafikan hak rawatan dan nyawa beliau terancam. Sila datang ramai-ramai untuk Wira kita.

Sebarkan mesej ini kepada semua

S.JAYATHAS . Valga Makkal SAKTHI.

HINDRAF IS EXPECTING A VERY BIG CROWD.. LETS SHOW OUR SUPPORT. WE HAVE TO SHOW OUR SUPPORT AS WE DID ON THE 25th RALLY. WE HAVE TO SHOW THE UMNO CONTROLLED GOVERMENT THAT WE INDIANS ARE ALWAYS UNITED AND NOTHING CAN BREAK US A PART..

SEND THIS TO ANY ONE U KNOW AND POST IT ANY BLOGS OR WEBSITE, WE MUST SPREAD THE NEWS...

MOST IMPORTANT !!! BE THERE ON 28/02/2009.

say NO TO ISA

1,000.000 People wants Malaysian Govt, Release 4 HINDRAF Lawyers from ISA

Tarot Card Reading for our beloved Anak Bangsa Malaysia Leader Raja Petra

2009-02-16T08:39:00.000-08:00

Tarot Card Reading for our beloved Anak Bangsa Malaysia Leader Raja Petra

Question:

How would be RPK trial today (Tuesday 16th Feb 2009)?

The significator, not shown, is the card you have chosen to embody the project and the focus of the reading. King of Cups: The essence of water behaving as air, such as a billowing cloud in the blue sky: Great maturity, endless patience, tolerance of other points of view, and a deep knowledge of human nature. One who intuitively knows the strengths of those around him, and gently cultivates them. Remaining calm and relaxed in all situations, and making artful use of diplomacy or a quiet word to resolve conflicts. The ability to listen to what another person is saying, and truly understand what is in their heart. A rewarding partner and a beloved leader.

The card in the middle represents the creative force behind the project, be it a person, organization, or other entity. Ten of Pentacles (Wealth), when reversed: Material prosperity and riches squandered through slothfulness, gambling, or family problems. The loss of reputation or inheritance, or the failure to pass an inheritance along to one's children.

The card on the top represents imagination - the prophetic image that stems from the creative force of the previous card to initiate the project. This is the poetry or voice of the undertaking. Ace of Swords: The seed of victory - perhaps as yet unseen. A challenge to be met and solved through the invocation of force. An opportunity to bring reason and intelligence to bear in the pursuit of justice and truth. An excessive power that must not be abused. May suggest new ideas or information that can reveal a solution to the problem at hand.

The card on the left represents emotion - the feelings aroused by or surrounding the ideation of the project that takes place in the previous card. This is the music or scent of the undertaking. The Emperor: Worldly authority and power. Social mastery and oratory. One who is intelligent, experienced, confident and reasonable. A patriarch or primary male influence. The motive force of politics and society. The ability to fulfill plans and use mental control over the emotions.

The card on the bottom represents thought - the analytical process of organizing the project and capturing the emotional content of the previous card. This is the science or vision of the undertaking. Six of Cups (Pleasure): Opening your heart to the simple pleasures of life. Fond memories fuel the playful embrace of love and life. Experiencing the joy of youth and sexual innocence. Engaging in acts of gentle kindness. Harmony of natural forces without effort or strain. Meeting an old friend.

The card on the right represents manifestation - the real work involved in completing the project, and the form it will take upon culmination. This is the painting or touch of the undertaking. Strength: Raw power. Health and physical fortitude. A surge of tremendous force. Recovery from sickness.Victory after apprehension and fear . The ability to face and overcome opposition brings the inner qualities of strength and forbearance. Delays and setbacks will be overcome.
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After reading the tarot card prediction, I have better feeling now. I just keep this positive thought without expecting anything at all. Came what may! I just keep my finger cross and wish the best it will come out as what the tarot card predicted. Buddhas Bless ... Sainthood Bless ... Gods Bless ... Brahmas Bless ... Devas Bless ...

Time now: 12:39 am

Official Markus Ng Memorial Website HAS MOVED TO NEW SITE

2009-02-14T09:44:00.001-08:00

THIS SITE (http://markusng.memory-of.com/About.aspx) HAS MOVED

Please note that the official Markus Ng Memorial Website has moved to http://markusng.last-memories.com due to hosting problems with this old site.

Please leave any new messages on the new site instead.

Please update your bookmarks and help spread the word about the move.

Markus Ng, our truly devoted Anak Bangsa Malaysia

2009-02-10T06:30:00.000-08:00

,

I can't remember exact date when I first met Markus Ng. But I do remember met Markus Ng when I had the first time long chat with him at the Lotus restaurant opposite PJ civil hall right after we have dispersed after been chased out. It must be a week after Nov 9, 2008 and I managed to shared with him and other PJ vigilers about world secret "Our delusive matrix world system". He passes away on 4th Feb 2009 (born on 6th may 1985 - year of Wood Ox) given us a SHOCKed. I got the terrible news from Nat Blogsite and I thought it was a joke! I do have Markus handphone number and at that instant I called him. When his brother David picked up the phone called with a broke down voices, I knew it, this is no more a joke, I wish it was a joke as I must been caught in the state of denied a bit. My mind went blank and trying to recall the last day I spend with him. I was sat in his car on the way to visit Ahmadiyya center. He got my personal card but he has not given me his. Finally he took out his card and gave it to me. He was driving a perdana. He told me the car is belong to his parents. I was again caught in surprised with a great devoted to our country with title "anak bangsa malaysia". How on earth he did it so devoted and successfully implemented within himself. I was praising him and told him, I will have my personal card similar to that too. He smiled silently.

After I came to knew that he has passes away, I smsed and email to all my PJ vigil friends whom we meet every Sunday night the SHOCKing news. Later I also went to google for his blog and found his blog[http://liltots.wordpress.com/] and here is Markus's memorial website [http://markusng.memory-of.com/].

I was very touch with his song titled Goodbye. Later I came to know from Michael this song was written many years ago .. here is the songs I love so much ..

Lyrics: Goodbye
by Markus Ng

Sitting silent waiting but the moment never comes
I wait, I wait
I try to get it off my chest
but time again I failed to say, to say

I love you from the very deepest bottom of my heart
If I were to write an essay for you
that's how I will start
before I say "I need you", tell you how I
wanna grow old with you
"I'll be the man you want me to be" too

My thoughts are filled with memories from the moment we first met
happy, and sad
I'll miss those times we spent together,
even empty talk and laughter
If only we could be together

But God seems to have another plan
something I don't understand
The countdown has began
If there is no tomorrow for me
I'll never get a chance to tell this story
how I loved you so
how I'd always wanted you to know

I love you from the very deepest bottom of my heart
If I were to write an essay for you
that's how I will start
before I say "I need you", tell you how I
wanna grow old with you
"I'll be the man you want me to be" too

Source: http://markusng.memory-of.com/legacy.aspx

From the lyrics, it seemed that Markus knew God had plan for him and I am strongly believe he must have been raises his soul to heaven in the kingdom of GOD. Each time I see Markus's photos, I have heartfelt joy came from him and brings smile to my heart. I want to thank Markus very much for his presence on this earth and spending time with us in almost every PJ vigil that I can think of. I love all the songs that Markus composed and sing so far .. so natural and original sincerity shown by word/music and given me a big surprises that Markus Ng, a truly talented young Anak Bangsa Malaysia and it is another wake up call for all of us in Malaysia. Word cant describe our feeling been lost of Markus Ng in PJ vigil (No to ISA). I began to fully deeply believe the word "Sacrifice". I have began to noticed that many talented child on earth always comes with "great sacrifices" and "do some services for other" become important in our lives. Please do some service for other especially to your beloved country.

another song ..funny and laughter ..

Lyrics: Blahblehblue
by Markus Ng

I laze in the park, I gaze in the dark
Got no mood to get up and do work needs to be done
Ooo... scoobydoobeedoo...

I get up from the pillow, I look out of my window
Dusty mosquito nets
That's just so sad, so sad
I think I’m slowly going mad
Well don’t you?

Well I tried everything
Picked up my guitar and sing
Went to volunteer to help out the tsunami victims
Tried to pick up all those self-help books
Tried improving on my good looks
Took those long and aimless drives
Played football, sweating like a pig
Tried to teach my dogs some tricks
Tried to write a song so I could pick up chicks

[chuckle]
Well, that last thing there is not true. Anyway what I'm trying to get at is I tried everything but I never really found what I was looking for and you know, sometimes in life you search so hard to find some things but in the end, some things find you instead. Let me just say life hasn't really been the same since. And now going back to the song...

Sun is shining higher
My days are looking brighter
Gloom’s no longer over me
'Cause I be- (4x)
'Cause I... be-believe

Sun is shining higher
My days are looking brighter
Gloom’s no longer over me
'Cause I believe

Tried to write a song so I could pick up chicks .. pick up chicks ...LOL
anyway here is the rest of the songs

Lyrics: I Want To Want To
by Markus Ng

God I don't know, I don’t know
I really want to, but it doesn't show
My projections, my convictions
Muddled mess, so much confusion
I don’t know, I don’t know.

What do I say when you've heard it all
Excuses, lies, remorse, more lies
Yet still I dare to mouth them words
I'm sorry for how much it hurts and disappoints

I'm not perfect,
but I’m gonna try
seek the truth and apply
I want to honestly repent
Give you my 100%

I want to want to love You
as You love me too
I want to want to live life
as You'd want me to
I want to want to honour You
More than anything I want to want to

I'not there yet, but I'm trying
Pushing on, oh I'm striving
Wait for me, I'm arriving
So help me God.

Lyrics: Feeling Blue
by Markus Ng

It's late night and it's not alright
but still the stars are so bright
A melody it keeps me awake
as it plays i fall and I break

I wanna close my eyes and cry
kiss the blues goodbye
I wanna run but there's nowhere to run to
But still I go and I look for my pair of shoes

So I run and I run
Without knowing where I'm gone
I'm all weary from this aimless journey
that I've begun

So I stop and I turn
looking for a lesson to learn
there's definitely something I missed
life should be more than this

It's just as if I'm afraid I'm losing
losing all my pride
But it seems there's more than pride I'm missing
my grip on life is loosening

I really wish I still was a child
back then I could truly smile
No worries about expectations
Such liberty I did not need to run

but still I ran and I ran
without knowing where I'd land
Was all weary from that aimless journey
that I began

So I stopped and I turned
I see the lesson to be learned
there was definitely something I missed
life was more than this

Lyrics: Strife
by Markus Ng

Sometimes you have to be broken
to know what it means to be full
sometimes you gotta fall
to know what it means to stand up tall

so when you're ever there
when life seems unfair
when you've hit the floor
remember, the only way to go is up
so grit your teeth
clench your fists
one thing for sure
you're gonna come out stronger

fix your eyes on the hill
for wisdom, strength and will

Lyrics: The Coward's Run
by Markus Ng

Oh how it envelopes me
Makes me shift uncomfortably
Emptiness; it shivers through my bones
So, so, cold

I'll do all I can to distract myself
Honest thoughts I shelve
Deny the self pity
I won't let it get to me

Like the coward, I run
Heart weighs me down like a ton
Tires me so
So tired of waiting, tired of trusting
Take the quick fix

Like the coward, I run
Heart weighs me down like a ton
Wasn't long before I stopped
To my knees I dropped

I do wanna leave
I wanna believe
I wanna live

Lyrics: Goodbye
by Markus Ng

Sitting silent waiting but the moment never comes
I wait, I wait
I try to get it off my chest
but time again I failed to say, to say

I love you from the very deepest bottom of my heart
If I were to write an essay for you
that's how I will start
before I say "I need you", tell you how I
wanna grow old with you
"I'll be the man you want me to be" too

My thoughts are filled with memories from the moment we first met
happy, and sad
I'll miss those times we spent together,
even empty talk and laughter
If only we could be together

But God seems to have another plan
something I don't understand
The countdown has began
If there is no tomorrow for me
I'll never get a chance to tell this story
how I loved you so
how I'd always wanted you to know

I love you from the very deepest bottom of my heart
If I were to write an essay for you
that's how I will start
before I say "I need you", tell you how I
wanna grow old with you
"I'll be the man you want me to be" too

Lyrics: Blahblehblue
by Markus Ng

I laze in the park, I gaze in the dark
Got no mood to get up and do work needs to be done
Ooo... scoobydoobeedoo...

I get up from the pillow, I look out of my window
Dusty mosquito nets
That's just so sad, so sad
I think I’m slowly going mad
Well don’t you?

Well I tried everything
Picked up my guitar and sing
Went to volunteer to help out the tsunami victims
Tried to pick up all those self-help books
Tried improving on my good looks
Took those long and aimless drives
Played football, sweating like a pig
Tried to teach my dogs some tricks
Tried to write a song so I could pick up chicks

[chuckle]
Well, that last thing there is not true. Anyway what I'm trying to get at is I tried everything but I never really found what I was looking for and you know, sometimes in life you search so hard to find some things but in the end, some things find you instead. Let me just say life hasn't really been the same since. And now going back to the song...

Sun is shining higher
My days are looking brighter
Gloom’s no longer over me
'Cause I be- (4x)
'Cause I... be-believe

Sun is shining higher
My days are looking brighter
Gloom’s no longer over me
'Cause I believe

Here Today - Ali McB feat. Nicholas Pang on guitar
If in time I had to go
I'd want you to know
If you'd lived another day
There's so much I'd yet to say

Here today, gone tomorrow
But you lived a thousand lives
and more just touching heartaches
Here today, gone tomorrow
But the faces that you lighted
know the smiles will never fade
Never knew how well you sang
Never knew you at all
But the night you let me stay
You touched my life in your own way

Here is the memorable touching words from his dear brother David Ng ...

Dearest Markus

February 8, 2009

Dearest Markus,

Words just cant express how I feel right now. It’s been 3 days since you’ve gone and a part of me is still in denial. I ask God “why did you have to go so early?” You had so much more to offer.

Papa, mama, Peter and I went through a period of great grief. A sorrow so deep that there was a point where I felt completely shattered and did not know where to start picking up the broken pieces from.

We miss you so dearly.. I think that papa feels that there was so much he wanted to tell you, so much wisdom & knowledge that he wants to impart to you, but did not have the opportunity to do so. I cannot imagine his shock the morning he found you on your bed. Mama misses you, how you never fail to ask her “how was your day?” when she fetches you back from work each evening. Peter is grief-stricken too, he was the last one you emailed just hours before your death.

I will miss all the good times we had together. It’s been my pleasure being a brother to you for the past 23 years. I’ve seen you grown up into a man after God’s heart, growing in wisdom and stature and touching many lives as you go along the way.

I remember the times when we were young. Playing together as brothers, having simple fun with one another. I remember the time while we were still in Mentakab, we used to play and pretend as if were travelling in a plane, visiting places all over the world. We would take papa& mama’s travel suitcases, arrange them on the floor as if we were sitting in a plane. I’d become the captain, you and Peter were the passengers. We took out the big atlas book and you’d would point to where you want to go, and I ‘flew’ both of you there.

I remember when you first started playing football. I used to teach you tricks and dribbled around you while you were younger. Over the years, you grew more skillful and became a better player than what I am today.

I remember how you first picked up guitar and I taught you a thing or two. Over the years, you grew better, began composing your own songs and became a tutor to many others. Have i told you that your songs sound good? You must have heard that many times already. I love the way you write your lyrics, how you beautifully & truthfully express yourself on your struggles. I am at awe at how you manage to write your lyrics and yet add a nice jazzy tune to it. I remember two weeks ago when you played the guitar for me and sang two songs that you were still halfway through in composing. I guess now, we’ll never be able to hear those songs again.

Over the years, you have grown so much in the Lord. We used to attend different churches ever since we came to PJ. I was comfortable in GA with my friends, but the family moved on to SSGC. I myself am not sure why I did not follow the family, but looking back, I think it gave us time & space to grow and flourish in our own special ways. I had the opportunity to serve and lead in my youth and music team, and you were able to develop and stand up on yourself, not always under the shadows of your elder brother.

We had a memorable wake service. Many of your friends, relatives and even people whom did not know you came. They were all saddened at your lost. We were so blessed to see the crowd, it moved us to tears to see all the people you knew coming to mourn at the service. Some stood up and testified on the footprints you left in their lives.

We really thank God for all the people who came to show their support-

your childhood friends, the people from TGC, your secondary school friends, collegemates, unimates, churchmates, football kakis, the people from ibridge, the PJ vigil, Unicef, the Headstart group and so many more which I cannot even recall.

Their presence, support and testimonies gave us so much encouragement. It really helped us during this time of despair.

We are so proud of you. We are proud to know that your death is not in vain. We are proud to know that you have made a difference in many lives that you came in contact with during your short time here. You were a friendly person, full of humility and also had a vision for a better Malaysia. I could see your love for the country, to see our country united under one banner, under one race called bangsa Malaysia. I hope this dream comes true and I too dare hope for a better future. You know, we sang ‘Negaraku’ at your memorial service. It was so unconventional, but yet I know if you were there, that was what you would have wanted.

We put a few of your favourite things into your coffin. There was your bible in there, your ‘Anak Bangsa Malaysia’ name cards, your favourite shirt, your football and boots. Hey, your comrade(Peter) at PJ vigil has also left behind the Anak Bangsa Malaysia cap which you wanted very much. Then there were also letters from your Essex unifriends / course mates.

Found 3 guitar picks in your wallet. Peter took one and exchanged it with another of his pick. I took the orange one and replaced it with my orange pick (its still brand new). Keep it for me yah.. I’ll collect it back from you when I meet you in heaven. Till then, keep playing songs for God!

Sigh.. It feels like you have left for a long trip and we are saying goodbye to you. The difference is that you have already made it to the end of your journey and will never come back here.

You have fought the good fight, finished the race and kept the faith. Cheer us on as we complete our own race. I remember the lyrics of your song ‘feeling blue’.. You ran and you ran, without knowing where you’d land.. All weary, from that aimless journey, that you began.. Now, it is time for you to rest. No more running, now safe in the arms of our Lord Jesus.

Your departure doesn’t change the fact that God is good. He cares, He loves us, and He is faithful. Dear Lord, grant us the comfort, grace and strength in time of our greatest sorrow. Heal those wounds, help us to pick up all the broken pieces. Make us whole again, renew our joy. Thank you so much for Markus!

I’ll miss you my brother, my football partner, music buddy. Our family misses you dearly. We rest assured knowing that one day, we will all be united again.

Forever.

Lots of love,

David

7 February 2009

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16 comments

Not believing this. Can’t believe you’re gone..

Rest in peace, dear Markus.
by Ryan Soo February 8, 2009 at 3:28 am
What a heartTouching memory which still vigil in our mind and heart! Thanks David for the heart felt sharing with beautiful memorable photographs ..
by James Nakason February 8, 2009 at 4:35 am
Thanks David, for sharing an insight into your family’s life. I had the pleasure of meeting Markus at a couple of the Anti-ISA Vigils, MBPJ. In a nutshell, I pray my son Joshua will emulate him.

You can find Markus’ photos taken at the 16th Anti-ISA Vigil http://picasaweb.google.com/pahlawan.volunteers/090125AntiISAVigil#

Could you be so kind so email me the templates of Markus’ callcards so that we can host it for people to download and print their own?

Much love and God bless

Pat Lu (012) 210 4898
Pahlawan Volunteers
by pahlawanvolunteers February 8, 2009 at 6:09 am
Markus, you’re greatly missed.
by Jen February 8, 2009 at 3:07 pm
I am touched by Markus’s life. He was like a candle, burning oneself to light up the lives of others. Now he will rest in the Lord.
by jinnhwa February 8, 2009 at 3:32 pm
I read this post with tears flowing over me.
David I hope that God will grant you, your brother and your parents strength to go through this difficult period.

Till we meet again Markus.
by jadelyn lee February 8, 2009 at 4:30 pm
Thanks for sharing on this. It is a pity that Markus left the world at such a young age. It is a loss for everyone - country, community, family, friends etc.
by Chen Chow February 8, 2009 at 4:37 pm
Thank you so much for sharing and including us in your journey of grief, which is full of the grace of God throughout.
by Sivin Kit February 9, 2009 at 1:39 am
I do not know you Markus. Only know and read about you from “Zorro unmasked” blog. Thanks Zorro for highlighting Markus to us a “Anak Bangsa Malaysia”.

My heart aches to see such a young and a fighter for justice has to leave to be with the Lord. As some would say, the world loves you but our Lord loves you more.
by S L Lim February 9, 2009 at 2:47 am
David n Peter,
I am Peter a fellow Anak Bangsa Malaysia, the one that left the cap and suggested the National Anthem.
Yes, Markus would have indeed been most appreciative of it.
Sorry never had the chance to actually speak to you guys at the wake, I hope we will be able to catch up soon. I do hope to have the honoour of knowing the both of you, continuing on with Markus.
Please be in contact.
by Peter Chong February 9, 2009 at 11:06 am
Keep on talking to him even though he’s not around cos it’s a good therapy for managing grief. It helps to reduce the pains of a devastated heart!

Be strong to accept that God loves him more and has better plans for him - plans which we don’t understand at all at the moment!

Markus, you are much admired and adored by loved ones!
by joyousnymph February 9, 2009 at 7:47 pm
David, I never knew your brother that well, but enough to know what a wonderful person he was. its hard to believe he has gone so fast. I am so touched by what you wrote, really he has had a fulfilled life and has touched so many ppl’s lives, even those who never knew him personally.

really. i am so sorry for what happened.. thank you for sharing this. it is good knowing that you will all be reunited in Heaven together someday and the separation is only temporary..
by Li Li February 10, 2009 at 12:56 am
Dear David and Peter,

I mourn your loss although I’ve never known Markus. Its always sad and heart wrenching to know that a young life who has so much more to offer has left us. However, it is also always comforting to know that Markus is in the arms of God, waiting for all us to get acquainted and reacquainted with him when it is our turn to be in the arms of our Heavenly Father.
by YJ February 10, 2009 at 1:42 am
it was an honour knowing u, markus.
by angchoonseong February 10, 2009 at 4:05 am
My condolences to your loss even though I’ve never heard of Markus before. And I’m just relieved to hear that you’ll continue his quest from where he left off.

Keep it up! Markus will always be in our hearts always!
by boon kheng February 10, 2009 at 5:16 am
No amount of my tears can bring Markus(my nephew)back to life but this is my natural response to the person I love-a reciprocation to the love given by his parents to me.Time can tell if a person has been sincere and genuine towards you-both parents of Markus have been always consistent at being helpful,thoughtful,kind and loving in words and in deeds-the same manifestation in Markus!Markus’s achievements surpassed most people and he has left behind him a legacy so he has not died in vain because his legacy still lives.I was fortunate to be able to attend the memorial services and funeral-I have learnt an invaluable lesson from these occasions.My brother Vincent asked me what I have learnt?At the age of 53,my life is still in a mess and I have not done any preparation for death.The Bible as I remember has 66 books(I don’t have the Bible beside me)but I can only remember 2 verses;John3:16 and Galation 5:22.When Markus mentioned “My hope is in dying to live.Death I fear you not.In God I trust.”He has already prepared for any eventualities!I always have apprehension about Markus’s perception of things.I once told him,”Forget about shaping the country’s destiny”-”you cannot do it” and I gave him the reason I know.However,I now see things in a different perspective.God can work miracles through His chosen ones-such fervent enthusiasm demonstrated by Markus is no ordinary feat;it must be God’s calling-his convictions and beliefs can move mountains!
by uncle seng February 10, 2009 at 4:26 pm